Sometimes writing can be a struggle. At least that’s what I tell myself when I can’t think of anything, but that is completely false. I mean look at how easily I’m writing right now. It might seem to me like I’ve got nothing to write about, or that my mind is completely empty, but in reality, it’s all just psychological. Once I put my pen down on paper and just start writing, there’s no stopping me. It’s the best feeling honestly, just writing out my thoughts and the first things that come to mind, nonstop.
Sometimes you feel out of place, like you don’t belong. At home, at school, or wherever it may be. You’re surrounded by people who know you so well, yet they don’t know you at all. Sometimes you can even feel like a stranger in your own home. And even though you have so many friends, you’ll still feel like you have no one. You might feel very afraid, but you feel like you have no one to reach out to. Sometimes you feel like you’re all alone, sometimes you’ll feel sad. Sometimes you’ll feel like you’re never good enough, other times you’ll go mad. But all along you know that deep inside, you’re stronger than ever before. So once again you pick yourself up and put on a smile, telling yourself that nothing can bring you down.
Thankfully I have you.
Hey, you guys. This post was very spontaneous and unplanned, but anyways. This is kinda like a “thank you” post? Well, not exactly but still. There are a few things that need to be said and put out there, so here goes nothing.
First, I want to thank everyone who broke me in the past, because they’ve made be stronger. So shoutout to you guys. Okay, guys honestly, I have so much to say but I really don’t know how to put it into words. I might not even post this but eh.
There have been loaaaaads of people who have come into my life, but only a few have stayed. Those few people mean so much to me, and I love them to pieces. And the rest of them? They’re irrelevant. Sure we had had good times, but that’s where it ends. Those people were toxic, they made me question my own sanity. Also, most of them left in the midst of amazing friendships. I waited so long for answers, but let me tell you a thing. It’s pointless. Don’t waste your time, take my word for it. Don’t go looking for answers, don’t go wishing you could turn back time. It’s malarkey.
But despite all the darkness, if we hadn’t crossed paths, I wouldn’t have grown as a person and I wouldn’t be where I am now. Everything happens for a reason, right? I believe in that so strongly. I’m really happy with how far I’ve come, and I’m so grateful to have amazing people by my side. A piece of advice? Don’t waste your time on stuff that won’t matter as time passes. Instead, take that time that you would waste sulking, and put it into doing you. Look after yourself and your health. Love yourself, and alwaysss put yourself before anything else. Nothing else really matters, trust me.
I would once give everything for those peeps, but now I’m really thankful that they are no longer in my life. We’re better off as strangers. I wish them well.
Hello, how are you? It’s so typical of me to talk about myself, I’m sorry. 🙈 But I’m going to have to talk about myself anywayss. 😂 I know I know, I said I wouldn’t make Adele references anymore but I just haaad to because it fit in so perfectly there. Another thing, I’m superrr sorry for not posting consistently like I used to. I’ve been busy studying so I haven’t been able to post daily and in addition to that, I still have a massive writer’s block 😭
After ages of thinking about words I could use to describe you, I’ve come to think of you as indescribable.
And to say you’ve crossed my mind would be impossible, because let’s just say you never left.
It’s like everything that I’ll ever need, all in one person.
They don’t know the real me
The one that’s all pretend
The me that might seem happy
But has thoughts running till 2 am
They don’t know
They don’t know I’ve feelings too
I’m only human after all
I make mistakes and have my flaws
They’ve made me build up walls
They don’t know
They don’t know I like being me
All my jokes and smiles and scars
Always trying to change and control
Well guess what? I don’t people-please
They just don’t know
They don’t know how much you mean to me
But all they choose to see
Is the non-existent ‘obsession’ I have for you
And what a bitch that makes me
I fail to see how my happiness has anything to do with them
All I know is that I’m not perfect
And trust me I’m trying my best
They don’t know
–Allie M 17/oct/2015
Hey peeps! 🐥 Soooo.. it’s 2016.. It doesn’t feel like it though, does it? It’s like you just blink and then boom! It’s a new yeaaar. 🎉 I wonder how many times I’ll accidentally write 2015 instead of 2016 in my notebooks..
How was last year for you guys? I know for a fact that it was a bit tough for us directioners, but we made it through and I couldn’t be prouder of us as a family ❤️ Keep smilinggg (like the smileys on my leggings 😂). Shout out to all of you directioners out there, love you guys.
Apart from that, I think 2015 was a pretty decent year for me compared to the previous ones and I know I’m going to make 2016 even better. This year is going to be amazing for all of us.
This year is a fresh start for everything, make it good. Start over. Create a new beginning. Smile so much more than you did last year, I know you can. This is your story to be written. ❤️
Here are some of my new year’s resolutions:
- Stress less
- Treasure my treasures
- Love more
- Organize myself
- Study harder
- Eat cleaner
- Spend more time with friends and family
- Grow my blog
- Live the life I want
- Overcome a fear
- Learn another language
- Continue being Queen 👸🏼
Those are just a few, I’ve got moreee. So yeah, have a great year ahead!