Sometimes writing can be a struggle. At least that’s what I tell myself when I can’t think of anything, but that is completely false. I mean look at how easily I’m writing right now. It might seem to me like I’ve got nothing to write about, or that my mind is completely empty, but in reality, it’s all just psychological. Once I put my pen down on paper and just start writing, there’s no stopping me. It’s the best feeling honestly, just writing out my thoughts and the first things that come to mind, nonstop.
Sometimes you feel out of place, like you don’t belong. At home, at school, or wherever it may be. You’re surrounded by people who know you so well, yet they don’t know you at all. Sometimes you can even feel like a stranger in your own home. And even though you have so many friends, you’ll still feel like you have no one. You might feel very afraid, but you feel like you have no one to reach out to. Sometimes you feel like you’re all alone, sometimes you’ll feel sad. Sometimes you’ll feel like you’re never good enough, other times you’ll go mad. But all along you know that deep inside, you’re stronger than ever before. So once again you pick yourself up and put on a smile, telling yourself that nothing can bring you down.
Thankfully I have you.
Sometimes I just stare at a blank screen or sheet of paper, wanting nothing more than to write, but the words fail to find their way out of my head. They just linger there, unable to put themselves together to form even the simplest of sentences. Times like these are often very frustrating, and sometimes it gets me mad. My mind feels as blank as the paper I am looking at, yet in reality, it’s the exact opposite of that. There’s nothing I can do really, except to start writing something, anything, in hopes that I no longer have to stare at a sheet that’s so painfully empty. Part of what I write might not make sense, but I believe that the rest of it does. Sometimes I write poems, other times I write what I feel. Most times I just ramble, but what I write is real. I’ll go on and on about stuff that is pointless, things that no one even cares about, but I know that out of billions, there is at least one other person who knows this feeling all too well. I write my last sentence and look once again, this time satisfied as I see the sheet that was once so irritatingly clean, now covered in words.
Just a little something to clear my head.
If you like reading, then good for you. If you don’t, well then
I don’t like you good for you too. If you guys didn’t already know, I’m in love with books. Books never fail to make me feel better or to satisfy my need for exploration and adventure. I’ve been reading since a little before I turned 4; I read books that were way more advanced for my age. I was always the kid that had her nose stuck in a book (and I believe I still am that person). As a kid in elementary school, I would spend every free moment in the library. And bear in mind, our school library was huge. Or at least to 8 year old me it was. Sometimes I’d read the same books all over, yet each time felt like a completely different journey. I love reading so much, but lately, I haven’t read as much as I used to. So to make up for all those missed hours, I’m going to read all summer long. How amazing does that sound? Here’s my reading list for this summer.
I’m sure everyone has been asked this question at least once if not more, and they’ve all answered it differently. Would you change the past if you could? Well, this is my answer.
Hey you guys! It’s been a while, I know. I have been busy recently and I will be for a while, perhaps the next two months, so bear with me if I don’t post often.
Studies aren’t exactly on my side, and I have just the month of April to change that. Just a fair warning that I’ll be a inactive most of this month and the next because exams, yaay. But on the brighter side of things, I do have (kinda yet not so) big plans for after my exams are over. For the blog of course. Anyways. Here’s a pretty picture (at least to me) cuz whyy nottt.
Hey, you guys. This post was very spontaneous and unplanned, but anyways. This is kinda like a “thank you” post? Well, not exactly but still. There are a few things that need to be said and put out there, so here goes nothing.
First, I want to thank everyone who broke me in the past, because they’ve made be stronger. So shoutout to you guys. Okay, guys honestly, I have so much to say but I really don’t know how to put it into words. I might not even post this but eh.
There have been loaaaaads of people who have come into my life, but only a few have stayed. Those few people mean so much to me, and I love them to pieces. And the rest of them? They’re irrelevant. Sure we had had good times, but that’s where it ends. Those people were toxic, they made me question my own sanity. Also, most of them left in the midst of amazing friendships. I waited so long for answers, but let me tell you a thing. It’s pointless. Don’t waste your time, take my word for it. Don’t go looking for answers, don’t go wishing you could turn back time. It’s malarkey.
But despite all the darkness, if we hadn’t crossed paths, I wouldn’t have grown as a person and I wouldn’t be where I am now. Everything happens for a reason, right? I believe in that so strongly. I’m really happy with how far I’ve come, and I’m so grateful to have amazing people by my side. A piece of advice? Don’t waste your time on stuff that won’t matter as time passes. Instead, take that time that you would waste sulking, and put it into doing you. Look after yourself and your health. Love yourself, and alwaysss put yourself before anything else. Nothing else really matters, trust me.
I would once give everything for those peeps, but now I’m really thankful that they are no longer in my life. We’re better off as strangers. I wish them well.
If you’ve seen my previous posts, I’m sure you can tell that I love traveling. If you haven’t, well, now you know. I mean honestly who wouldn’t enjoy travel? It’s so therapeutic and relaxing. Today I decided to share my travel bucket list
(that I just made cuz why not) with you guys. And also, since I just made this like 2 days ago, it’s kinda incomplete. I’ll do an update on it later on. Let’s just hope I don’t get lazy and completely forget about it.
My travel bucket list:
- Ride a water taxi in Venice
- Visit the glow worm caves in New Zealand
- Visit Bora Bora
- See the northern lights
- Visit the Amazon
- Take a trip to Machu Picchu
- Ride the London eye
- See the Eiffel tower
- Go to Seattle
- Walk on the Great Wall of China
- See the Grand Canyon
- Go whale watching
- Trek through the Himalayas
- Go to Antarctica
- Stand under the Hollywood sign
- Visit Mount Rushmore
- Go on a cruise
- Go to Disneyland
- See the tulip fields in Holland
- Put a lock on a love bridge
- Float in the Dead Sea
- See the Stonehenge
- Visit Easter Island
- Take a trip to the Arctic
- See the fairy pools in Scotland
- Make an adventure book
- Go zip lining
- Ride a private jet
- Go to Ayada Maldives
- Stay in French Polynesia
- Ride in a hot air balloon
- Go skiing
- Visit the Harry Potter studios in London
- Visit platform 9 3/4 at King’s Cross Station
- Stay at an underwater hotel in Fiji
- Walk through a wisteria flower tunnel in Japan
- Go to a black sand beach
- Go to a pink sand beach
- Visit Australia
- Go to the Great Barrier Reef
- Spend a day at a waterpark
- Spend a day at a theme park
- See the statue of liberty
- See the Big Ben
- Have breakfast at Tiffany’s
That’s all for now, although I have so much more to add. Some of these aren’t exactly about “travel”, but they still fall into that category in a way.
Also random thought/fact: I’m the type of person that has speech typos. I make ‘typos’ while speaking. Like, speakos. I’m sorry (only like 5%), ignore this and carry on.
There are certain moments – or people – in your life that just bring you this unexplainable happiness. There are also those songs that you were listening to during said moments, and so every time you hear it again it fills you with pure joy and a whole bunch of other emotions. It’s a lovely feeling, but it’s also quite overwhelming. Why? Well, I can’t really say for everyone, but personally, I think it’s because of the mixture of feelings. I feel this really strong urge to be back in that particular situation, and it just overwhelms me. Like nostalgia maybe. But otherwise, it’s an amazing feeling, looking back. I mean, when you’re in the moment, whether it be with people you love or just you alone, you just enjoy it. You’re not thinking about how you’d feel looking back. Even if it’s me alone, in cute sweats or a onesie (or with pizza and my jakey – or even just binge watching my fave tv series, you know what I mean?) Those are my favorite moments. That’s what I love about making memories, the “remember when…”s. I was actually listening to a couple songs while writing this, it’s why I actually got the motivation I needed to write. The songs that made me think about the memories I’ve made with the people I hold so close to my heart. Thank you to everyone who has helped me create amaaaaaazing memories, I love you guys.
HI, YOU GUYS. Firstly, I want to apologize for not blogging even once since the new year has begun. I thought to let y’all know that my blog will be on hiatus for a while due to school/exams blah blah. I will give you guys an update on my ‘wanderlust series‘, though. Later. And I’ll also try not to take a super long hiatus, I’ll try to find the time here and there.
See you sooooooon